I Am Learning

I have been doing a lot of learning lately, and not in a absorbing books sort of way. Since earning my blackbelt, many things have come to light.

I am learning new forms, which is very exciting. I am still working on perfecting the forms I already know, but I have a lifetime to continue to do just that. I have started Tai Chi, and that has been great so far. Except for some joint pain, but I can manage that.

I have learned more about my body, it’s ability to heal, and my mental capacity to adapt. My injuries have forced me to adjust my workouts, my intensity, and how I learn. I have had to learn how to approach my forms differently, as well as my classes differently. I have struggled with staying positive, but have learned that I am surrounded by an amazing Kung Fu family. I have learned that while I cannot contribute the same way as before my latest injury, I am still more than capable of contributing in other ways. I am no less of a person, because of a physical limitation.

I have learned to start looking within myself to find my truth. I am learning to seek my true intentions, and not hide behind what I want to believe. I have learned that honesty really is the best policy, no matter how good your intentions are. I have learned to appreciate what I have, and that what I do have is a blessing. I have learned that it is really easy to take a person for granted without realizing it, and how easily they can be hurt.

I am learning to accept myself and my shortcomings, and to embrace my strengths. I am learning not to judge myself so harshly, and am learning to trust those around me more. I am learning to give more, and take less.