I am aware of where my mind is right now, but I am also aware that I need to blog. Even though I would rather put it off until I know I can say something positive and relevant. My mind has been in the past today. And while reflecting on the person I am missing tremendously, I was reminded of a question that someone in a similar situation asked me a little while ago. She asked if grief ever gets better, and I answered as best as I could at the time. But as I continued to think about it, I realize that my answer should be that it changes. It doesn’t go away, but it does change.

Everything changes. The seasons, trends, relationships, jobs, circumstances, as well as points of view. But our Kung Fu changes as well. Or rather the journey does. My body cannot perform like it could 10 years ago, and I could mourn that. Or I can cherish where I am at now, and make the most of it. There is so much depth to Kung Fu, and so much that I still want to learn. So what do I do? I need to push myself when I can, and reflect more when I cannot push myself.

So on days like today, when I would just love to build a cushion fort and hide, I will push myself and do what is should be doing. Cherishing what I have and trying to stay in the moment.

A long time ago...

15 1/2 years. That’s how long I have been training at Silent River King Fu. It has given me strength to make difficult decisions and has served to help me through them. It has given me confidence to push myself out of my comfort zone, and a safe place to land. Training here has allowed my spirit to grow, and continues to inspire me to live a healthy lifestyle. Training at Silent River Kung Fu has allowed me to nurture my empathy, allowing me to become a more compassionate citizen of the earth.

I started because I wanted to learn self defence. In return, I have become a better mother than I imagined I could be. My journey has allowed me to set the example to my children that you can do anything if you keep trying. And training at SRKF has given me a much bigger family, that are always there for support and encouragement.

15 1/2 years, and I don’t see an end in sight.

Fire!

I am sitting here beside the wood stove, nursing my third migraine this week. But it’s a perfect day for a fire, and to just stay cozy. During open training yesterday, I realized that there a few forms that I haven’t practiced in a while, and as I tried to get through them, I found myself questioning if I was even doing them correctly. I have neglected them, and that was very obvious to me. So my mission now is to practice them more often.

All of our forms are important and they are my favourite part of Kung Fu.