Well, I survived. Actually I succeeded. Not a really big, fireworks kind of success, but a quiet subdued one and I am ok with that. And I know my performance sucked out loud, as my whole body was shaking the whole time I was out there. But that doesn’t matter. I didn’t go out there to win against anyone. I went out there to challenge my mind. And it was hard. And a big part of me just wanted to leave before my event. But I didn’t. I went out there and I sucked. But I didn’t cry, nor did I let in any negative self talk which is no easy feat either.

I am sure next year will also be a difficult tournament to enter, but do have a success to build on. A tiny one, but a success all the same.