You loved me first

I am not sure if I can write what I want to write about yet. Or if I will ever be ready to share my loss. The loss has affected my whole family, not just me, and these last 4 months have left us all reeling in it's wake. On one hand, our lives were flipped upside down and inside out, but it brought my family closer together too. I never imagined how much one person could touch so many lives in a short lifetime, but it is possible. I have been humbled by the simple act of being kind, and the difference a genuine smile can make. When you make others a priority, and take their wellbeing seriously, you can make a difference. And it doesn't even have to be in person to do it. Kind words, words spoken with optimism, and words spoken from the heart, can travel the globe with the strike of a button. We don't know how much of a difference we might make, but if we concentrate on our acts of kindness and being sincere, I know we have the ability to change the world. My world is a better place, and I am a better person because of my mom. I am starting to understand the power of kindness, and the feelings of peace when it is given unconditionally. She is my angel, the wind that blows, the sun that shines, the rain that falls and nourishes, and the cold sleep of winter. She is the light that I see in my children. I miss you mom. (and your hugs too)