My mood has been pretty down the last couple of days, and while it may sound cliche I literally woke up like this. I have little patience, and just want to curl up for a long while in a secluded spot. Not going to happen though. It took all I had today to just shower, although I have taken care of that and maybe feel a little better. Not much though, which sucks as I have to teach tonight. Oh well, I can do this.
I recognize that it’s probably hormonal, but that doesn’t make it any easier to manage. I can’t explain how or why I feel the way I do, and I know that is hard for my family to understand. I think that is what makes it more difficult, the not having a reason, or any reason for my madness. That’s how it feels sometimes.
I try to practice gratitude when I am like this, but that’s challenging too. It’s so hard to find the positives anywhere, let alone within myself. I feel like I am failing in everything. I feel burnt out.
Anyway, enough of the pity party. I need to keep pushing forward. And I will. Things will shift when I start teaching as it always does. It’s an opportunity to step outside my head, and bask in the joy of my young students.
